How I Stuck Two Fingers Up To Anxiety

Where Did My Anxiety Journey Start?

So my fears (anxiety) played out in dumping me into bed for months feeling as crap as I have ever felt. 

My anxiety produced very physical long term symptoms so obviously I did the right thing and had  medical tests to make sure there was nothing physically wrong with me. And after every blood test, scan and check known to man there is a sense of relief that nothing nasty can be found, but to be told that I have something (fibromyalgia) that they don’t know the cure or there isn’t one is a tad confusing and frustrating! Still, everything happens for a reason as they say.

I don’t profess to be an expert in medicine…but saying there is no cure is about as much use as a chocolate teapot, and if the only solution is to throw zombifying medication at me, I think I will pass on your ”expertise”.

The first thing we do is turn to Google and online research, which to be frank is pretty tough when eating cereal in the morning is about as much energy as you can muster and you are asleep more than you are awake! Whatever the label that was put on it, I soon came to realise that I was absolutely burnt out, mentally, physically, and emotionally. This had manifested into a body exhausted and riddled with pain and I was slowly giving into this.

I was in my 40’s whilst this recipe of stress, worry, and a dose of trauma finished me off. Old stories, old beliefs, abusing myself with diet, booze, fags and mentally putting myself down, combined with fears, phobias and a real tough life situation was pumping that much fear into my body it was ringing alarm bells so damn loud I had no choice but to listen.

So in essence, I was in a bloody mess and one hell of a kerfuffle!

How is this linked to two fingers and anxiety you may ask? I will get to this I promise, but two fingers really did change my game. However, before I reveal the secret, it needs a little context.

How My Anxiety Manifested Itself

I now understand anxiety is fear and the body produces adrenaline and cortisol to put us into “fight or flight mode”, what I didn’t know at the time was that I had masses of old stories running in the back of my mind, which were constantly flooding my body with these chemicals in large quantities. 

No wonder I was tired, it felt like I was sprinting like Usain Bolt or fighting like Tyson Fury in my body 24/7…my response mechanisms were on fire. So in comparison to a race run in under 10 seconds or x12 3 minute rounds of fighting, I had no chance, a bit like I would be running against or fighting either of those individuals 24/7 of indeed at all.

Fatigue comes through stress, anxiety is stress and stress is overload. I was full to the brim of events from the past, running stories from today and catastrophising about the future.

Why Am I Writing This?

So this blog as it evolves is my story of how the two fingers used in the amazing treatment of EMDR saved my life and changed my game. In my next blog I will start to share the journey I went on.

Of course if you want to know more about my journey or EMDR for anxiety, feel free to call me now and discuss how my two fingers can rapidly change your life….as of course I now do this for a living